Contentment

Many of us live wishing our present season would pass, but the irony is that with each passing season we will find reasons to want something different or new.

Women need to find contentment in the presence of God; embracing all that has been given and taken as the goodness and mercy of Jehovah.

I'm living lean these days and can recall a time when money was not an issue. Those were good days financially, but spiritually and physically I battled anxiety.

Anxiety weighs a person down, so I did not live with peace or joy and made my husband miserable with many demands.

The demands came in hopes that he could heal the torment in my soul, but it wasn't his place to mend what only God had the power to do. He desperately tried to please me so we could have peace, but in so doing he made matters worse.

A man cannot give in to the demands of his wife. He unknowingly causes her to sink deeper into a state of chaos and madness.

We lost everything as a result of my bidding, and have lived the rest of our time trying to make up for the many mistakes we made.

However, God is the answer at the end of the line; the solid ground who holds balance when we can't look down.

In the midst of having little monetarily I have learned to live in peace with my hands and abilities. I have embraced talents I didn't think I had or could have. I have accepted my spiritual gift as something that God has given not for me, but for edification of the saints.

I am better, but not whole. It is a process of sanctification that means I tame myself for the sake of my family and others. It means I love God and do His will; understanding it is a battle until one day it is not.

It means that I pioneer parent and build the christian family I never had.

It means I let my husband do his job and I do mine.

It means I fall in love with my children and stop complaining. I gird my loins with strength. Proverbs 31.

It means I bow the knee in eternal Eucharisteo.